Pity Party, Table for One

I brought Bubbie to daycare for the first time today just to kind of introduce him (and me) to his teachers. We stayed for 2 hours and he had fun. It was kind of funny watching him interact with the other kids, but so hard to kind of let him do his thing. I tried not to hover and just let him wander and explore.

I pretty much knew he was going to go since February, but now that the time has come, I'm so sad - heartbroken even. In fact, the day I found out I got a job, I was really excited. But that night, I sobbed in bed knowing that Bubbie would be going off to daycare. I hate that I'm not going to be with him all day, giving him kisses, snuggling with him, and watching him figure out fun things like pointing.

When we first walked in, I was struggling immediately knowing that in a week, he'd be there full time - from 6:30-4:30 every day. I had to suck back tears a bunch. The fact that the time has come is killing me. Next week, I'll be dropping him off for a few hours every day. By the end of the week, he'll be going almost all day. The following week, he'll be a daycare toddler. :(

I'm dreading the look he'll give me when I leave. I can't handle it. I'm tearing up right now thinking about it. I HATE THIS!

Halle-freaking-luyah

I got a job!! I got a job!! I got a job!! I interviewed at this really awesome charter school last week and got the call last night that I got the job. I'm so excited, but sooooooo sad that I won't be home with Bubbie every day. The hardest part is that he's going to start going to get used to the daycare starting the first week of August and going full time the second week. That leaves me with only 1 week left of being home full time. :( I'm so happy to be able to pay our mortgage and help B bring in some $$, but leaving Bubbie all day breaks my heart.

It's hoooootttt

That is all.

Where can I find a....

Bubbienese dictionary? Now that he's got walking down, Bubbie is all about trying to talk. Today he's been saying something that sounds like a mixture of "boy," "bear," and "book." B and I cannot figure out what the heck he's saying. I *think* it might be book. So, if you come across a Bubbienese dictionary, please let me know. :)

On a lighter note...

My last few posts have been pretty Debbie Downer. Sorry about that. :) Anywho, Bubbie has been cracking me up with funny faces and generally being a super fun kid. He's a walking machine and loves being chased right now. Good times!! Yay for toddlers.